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wrong-brained

I am so fed up with myself. I am obviously too stupid to understand the rules to Button Men Online, and too argumentative to be helped by my friends. Now no one is going to want to play this game with me anymore, because I suck at it, and when I ask for help I’m already upset enough that I’m cranky and negative.

None of the explanations make sense to me. I don’t usually play online games because being so right-brained makes it impossible for me to understand game-playing concepts when they are explained in words. I have to watch someone play it in the physical world, or see a diagram of how things work, for it to make any sense.

This is why I am horrible with directions unless I have turn-by-turn maps. If I can see it, I can do it. If someone is describing what they see, I can’t. Playing chess online got so frustrating for me, even though I understood all the concepts, because I couldn’t adequately visualize the board and all my moves while using only algebraic notation.

I love playing games, and I want to play this particular game with my friends so much. I just don’t know when I will be able to wrap my head around it. Right now, it seems impossible.

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